For a long time. My dream weight loss goal was 100 pounds. It was crazy to think I would even get here. I didn't expect to actually hit it. I guess I was just not ready to handle it. And I am not. I have been pretty stressed out since I hit the 100 pound mark. This past weekend I had a conversation with my Weight Watchers leader and we talked about maintenance. Quite frankly, it scares me. I have never been in a place in my life where i just need to maintain. Either I need to lose weight or, oh, wait, that's all I have ever needed to do.
I am scared if I don't lose, I will gain. I am also scared that I will just gain it all back. It's just new territory. I have never been here. I also don't know where I need to go. Should I go lower? How much lower? It is hard because so many people think I have lost too much weight. Which annoys me. It's not the thing you want to hear when you worked so hard at losing weight.
Overall though, I am happy I am here and I know what it took.